That sometimes I’m too nice for my own good.. Like at times I would be to the point of bordering being an idiot or being used.@6 days ago
Anonymous asked: Hi, I may not know you but is that post about an ex?
You could say that yeah.@5 days ago
Goddamn that fucking stings. Things have clearly past so why do I care about this so much. It shouldn’t bother me it really shouldn’t. So why when I see it, it burns me up inside and I feel like nothing ive ever felt before. Is it me being jealous. Feeling betrayed or lied too? What the hell it is it. I’ve never experienced this. Its never happened to me before so how do I deal with it. Why do I want to chase something I’ll never have again. Why do I want this so bad. I don’t know what I’m feeling. I had a lot to say yet when I started to vent I’m at a loss of words. I want to disappear. And the reason I thought I was here still is now the reason why I want to leave. I want to punch a wall. I want to lay in bed and just stare at the ceiling feeling everything yet feeling nothing at all. I had so much to say yet now here I am with nothing meaningful. I’m so done. I’m so done trying to feel useless and trying to make things up when I’m now thoroughly convinced that no matter what. In the end the thing I want most will never be mine. Why do I care so much….@1 week ago